Tuesday, May 26, 2009

A Weak Week

There’s a part of my that wants to say, “Sorry it’s been a whole week since my last post.” In some ways it is true, but I don’t feel right saying sorry nor do I even really believe anyone thinks I should be (except for Cuzzup who now lacks sufficient reading material for her ride to work or #2 seatings).
I am in a bit of a fog of late and that is the understatement of the moment. realistically, I am in a heap of fog and just don’t think or see clearly – I am constantly reevaluating me and where I am going.  So, for the  billionth time, I once again embark on the “What the fuck am I doing tour?” and will hopefully keep you (and me) in touch.
I watched a pretty different movie yesterday, it’s called “Towelhead”. A compelling coming of age story wrapped around a web of political and cultural prejudice.
I’ve written some stand-up comedy material. Don’t get excited – it’s about 1 minute-ish of material. I conceived it while driving back to the office from lunch today thinking about the cruise I took to Hawaii. There was this “comedian” there that was kind of hosting a thing where anyone can come up and tell a joke. So, I thought, what the hell could I get up there and say and actually be funny. If I take the initiative to scratch out some notes and write down my direction – I’ll record the comedy bit with a sound effects audience and see how it fares in podcast form.
And now, 6 words I’ve never used (until now):
  1. qayed
  2. giclee
  3. uglyful
  4. hackrilege
  5. jamers
  6. absodiot
I heart you lots.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Unnecessarily Untitled

No need to blow the whole wad on a clever title when there’s not much substance to follow. First, to address my last post and the two commenter's: thanks Joy for the inspiration/challenge and thanks to both of you for your words.
I mentioned that I might further elaborate on one of the truths but after more thought, I think I’ll leave it be for now.
Today, I saw the first two episodes of season one of a show called “Breaking Bad”. I had heard an awful lot about this how and boy does it deliver. If you enjoy dark (and I mean dark) comedy, you will definitely want to give this one a shot (at least based on the first 2 episodes.
After the final performances on Idol, while I think both guys are talented, Adam is the superior (in my opinion).
With regard to DWTS, I don’t know what the judges have against Melissa, who I think is the best of the three finalists, perhaps the home voters will see differently.
Later for now.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


Joy tagged me as an Honest Blogger and as such, I must write here 10 honest things about myself (presumably in addition to the many, many honest things I’ve already posted here). I’ll do my best not to repeat, so here goes:
  1. I have anxiety disorder. It first showed up sometime after my mother passed away leaving me with zero parents and an active mind to reflect on the various illnesses that made their lives miserable.
  2. I sometimes need that pat on the back or some small validation that I am appreciated.
  3. I have been bankrupt; literally. When I was 27, years of foolishness caught up with me and I was left with no choice but to file for bankruptcy. It was an awakening that has changed me in many ways and have since had no debt at all.
  4. I once took a married, recovering alcoholic woman to a bar hoping to score. I was way younger and far dumber – this is an inexcusable act for which I’ve begged for atonement from God and from the woman in question (who I genuinely loved and had known for a long time). This may have been the single worst thing I’ve ever done – and while I was forgiven, I can’t shake that I actually did this.
  5. I had a boss who was such a coke head that he often delayed payroll. Once in retaliation for his scumbagness, I lit off an array of fireworks in my workplace.
  6. I love to play pranks and practical jokes on people but I hate it when it is done to me.
  7. There was this bully that bullied me for a long time when I was a kid and one time while he was bullying me, I peed my pants.
  8. I have a deep rooted fear of drowning. I once almost did drown! I can’t swim and deeply fear being in the water (oddly, I love being on the water – in a boat).
  9. I once used my computer skills to fabricate an advertisement in an effort to get a retailer to beat a fabricated price of a product (they did and I saved hundreds of dollars).
  10. There are two dreams (I think) that I have had that were so vivid and realistic that years later, I still think about them and question whether or not they were dreams.
Okay, how did I do? Couple of doozies there, eh? While I typically don’t point out people via nominations and usually just say, go for it should you choose…I am going to nominate 2 folks whom I am fairly sure would at least consider doing this:
Essentially Me and SM. I know that SM doesn’t have a blog at the moment but if you feel like playing, use the comment section. All takers are welcome.
Peace – and don’t think anything has changed….530!
Added on Thursday Morning - I realized that Brookem would be great at this too though with her TMI Thursday series, she's already given so much - but she deserves the Honest Blogger Award for sure :) Also, remembering #4 has forced me to reflect a bit and I may expand upon the story a bit in my next post.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Randomnities and a Comment for EM

Some rapid fire tweets you may have missed unless you follow me on twitter:

"If I were a carpenter, and you were a lady" all these what if's

"If I were a dentist, and you were a shoe horn..."

"If I were a homeless dude, and you were a bag lady..."

"If I were a recluse and you were a Jehova's Witness..."

"If I were a magician, and you were a pharmaceutical sales rep from Des Moines..."

"If I were a bagel, and you were a shmear..."

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If you need a 65 watt par 38 spot light in a pinch, you are FUCKED! It's not a commonly stocked item so plan ahead.

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Just finishing up a collection of Bukowski poems released posthumously. Some of the poems were written while battling cancer and just before his death and revolve around him confronting his own mortality – pretty heavy and interesting and in a very Bukowski kind of way. (Hopefully, a review will appear on Book Me In soon).

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In response to EM on her post, "Fear is Crippling":

I think you are a really special person to even have thought about paying for this guy's groceries but I think if he was in real trouble, it wouldn't be steaks and charcoal on the counter. Feeling bad for the hassle he had to endure is cool but I not sure you need to worry about whether or not he's going to eat. Still, you seem to never cease to amaze me and just to throw in a non-sequitor – you are the best tweeter I follow, hands down.

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That's all for now my lovelies!

Monday, May 11, 2009

In Memory of Elaine Butterfield

Early on she was just the lady that sat next to me in church, that is, after I staked my claim to a particular seat in a particular pew. She had several mannerisms and "ticks" that were at first somewhat distracting. She made this sound with her mouth – kind of the tongue rubbing against the teeth sound (not sure how to describe it and if forced to spell the sound, I would probable go with this, "tcha", though that really doesn't do the sound justice). I made the assumption it was either a nervous tick, a denture wearer's lament, or some combination.

In time, as I got to know Elaine, her mannerisms became less of a distraction and more just a part of her identity though far less important than who she really was. The only time I ever spent with Elaine was in church; chatting a bit before the service and sharing worship together during the service. On rare occasions, Elaine came to fellowship hour but more often opted to head back home while traffic was still soft. Driving into her 80's got a bit more difficult and it was just easier for her to get though her day if she planned it accordingly.

Elaine has a rich history in our church having been a parishioner for nearly 60 years and spoke many times of how her husband "helped build this church". She would often have her knitting with her, just in case.

Elaine passed away last Tuesday at the age of 88. I was deeply saddened to hear of her loss late and was unable to pay my respects in person. This Sunday, I looked over at the empty seat next to mine and then looked up – I think she knew how much I liked her.

Rest in piece Elaine Butterfield.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Too Beautiful to Blog

The awesome Sprizee turned me on to a radio show that emanates nightly from KIRO FM in Seatlle called TBTL; Too Beautiful to Live. The show airs nightly and is available in podcast form. Listeners such as myself who listen this way are referred to as “Time Bandits” – fans of the show are called “TENS” (as in “tens of listeners”).
Today, I finally feel validated as I have made it to the tens metablog, a blog of blogs if you will that is put together by a ten from NY city. Now if only I get to see one of my two photoroll entries on the TBTL blog, I will really be ecstatic!
the show, TBTL, is hosted by a witty young fellow who calls himself Luke, probably a name forced upon him by his parental units, but he did choose to keep it. along with Luke, producer Jenn (whom I think I have a bit of a crush on of late, especially after her super string song) and Sean (“Japan’s #1 Mixer”) DeTorre round out the show and the interplay between the three is rare balance of uniquely entertaining and totally awesome.
Thanks to Sprizee for the recommendation and to the TBTL crew for giving me something to listen to that matters to me again.

Monday, May 04, 2009

Happy Birthday Brookem & Egan

Real tired – no regular post for now.
I do want to wish a happy birthday to two very special blogger buds: Brookem and Egan. You both are awesome folks and I hope you had a great day and have a wonderful year.

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Karaoke Night

Tonight we are having a karaoke fundraiser at church and I have been assigned the fun little task of emcee. Of course, I am looking forward to it because I am a total ham and it is for such a cool cause - we are raising money to fund mission trips.

I hope that someone will have a camera on hand to take some goofy photographs - I will gladly post some if they come my way.

Transitioning to other things going on, the home improvement stuff is beginning to take shape though is not any less stressful. I've secured the services, via a hefty deposit, of a contractor to handle insulation, siding and gutters. the good news is that the insulation job will end up costing only about 400 bucks or so after a hefty rebate from the gas company and then another rebate from Uncle Sam come tax time next year.
I've successfully negotiated the price I wanted to pay for a new patio door, a very snazzy one I might add, and that is being installed in a few weeks.
Monday morning at 8:00 am, I am meeting with an electrician to figure out why the current exterior lighting doesn't function and hopefully that can all get settled within a week.
So, moving along...I have some details to take care of for karaoke night and I also need to eat some breakfast...later!